“It’s a terrible feeling not being able to fall asleep at night, while watching the clock tick. I remember how I used to love having Don with me in my bed. If I couldn’t sleep, he put his arm round, I felt so protected and safe. I miss that terribly. I just didn’t know what it was to be alone. I got used to most of it, just occasionally I feel a bit lonely. Television is a wonderful companion, because I save the programmes and watch them in the evenings. Yes, I must confess, I do feel lonely sometimes. Just for that close companionship, but you’ve got to live with it.”